Singledom

So of late I have been really feeling the fact that I am single. I pack so much into my schedule that when I have free time I just really wish that I had someone to spend it with. I love my friends a TON, but this summer I really feel I have had too much time just with the girls. There actually is too much girl time. Every free second I have, my female friends expect me to spend with them. It may sound horrible, but I need to testosterone in my life. I love boys. I love attention from boys. I love being friends with boys. Even spending a night with my gay friend George was refreshing compared to hearing of all the woes in my female friends lives. It feels like a constant "blah, blah, blah boys are bad and do you wrong." No wonder these friends are not in particularly healthy or committed relationships... Deciding that someone will hurt you before you even get to know them is not promising for your future. I know sometimes all girls can be negative nancys with complaints about getting their heart broken or the bad timing on things or "if he just lived here or I just lived there." Lets face it... if its not meant to work out, it simply does not happen. One thing we ALWAYS talked about in bible study was how God has a plan and we need to not try to control it.

That being said, I do not feel people can control it with online dating and what not. Maybe I am just skeptical. I am not sure, but it just doesnt seem natural to me. I do not judge anyone for online dating (yes there was a time when I did, but nowadays it seems so common) I just wonder if its kinda forcing things. Like if two people finally decide that they are ready for something real they just log in..? I got one of those email things to try out one free for seven days and it seemed like it was just full of creepy older guys trying to contact me.
I guess I just believe that fate(read: aka God's Plan) has more for me and each of us then an online dating site. I do not doubt that some people have that as the easiest solution to their singledom, but since when was it a problem to be alone? Or for that matter not alone but rather not in a relationship. I am definitely not dating anyone and yet I find that I never get a second to myself (save those precious moments alone with my sansaclip and Katy trail)

I hope the best for all of those who do choose that path and I am sure that for many it works out well. I just do not want people to use it as a crutch to not venture out of the house and talk to someone new. When I contemplate this stuff I cannot help but think about my coach "say hi to someone you don't know" It could change your life (and from what it looks like save you a little hard earned cash)